I wish I could tell you something that will make you feel better. Or better yet, tell you that it will get better. But you and I both know that it’s up to you now. You already know my perception of things. Parents will be parents, some are just less understanding and, in my opinion, fair. Yet they are worth everything in the world. And yes, they are. They’ve been with you for so long, behind you in every step. There comes a time when you need to realize that letting go is the first step into your adulthood. They can berate you everyday. They can take down your diploma. They can make you feel worthless. The problem is maybe you just haven’t seen the other side of things. This is your life. Sooner or later, you’ll discover that you need to live for yourself. From personal experience, trying to will your life around the woes of your parents does not make life better. There is a big difference between their lifetime and yours. Things change. The world is not the same as when they were first breaking into their world. Are their opinions that much better than your own? Now it’s your turn to take your steps. Realize that failure is an option. Sometimes the best thing happens when you realize that this “failure” is just another path that you’ve stumbled upon. The road to Rome varies. You can follow the map you’ve been given. Or you can take the uncharted route and decide for yourself which direction to take. And who knows, maybe Rome isn’t where you need to go. Maybe you need to go to Plymouth Rock and claim a new world.
I hope you understand what I’m saying here. Making it on your own is hard. And not having your parents’ support is harder. But why do you care? There will always be something else for them to judge. I hope that you realize your umbilical cord got snipped a long time ago. You can do anything you want. Being unconventional is not really unconventional. Take a break from this beaten path of trying to get an MD. Go to Japan and teach English. Go to Australia and study the dying coral reef. At the very least, get it through to yourself that you don’t have to go back home to your parents everyday. Make your own choices and let God be your judge.